My Best christmas gift from Heaven

it was the sweetest but why do i feel the pain again..??

i thought i was smarter this time, and won't get trigger by it
but the look and stare given was so long so many times so different
and look as though it had fallen into my eyes...

i wish it wasn't this way, i rather not have those thought
but somehow it seems so strong, at the same time
am afriad i'll fall again..

i don't wanna feel the same way i felt again years back.

I'm feeling LOST and Scared, it just doesn't go away

and i came home at 4 plus..
saw jeff online.

THANK YOU FOR CHEERING ME UP!

It's funny and entertaining with all the gay shots! =D